Suffering: fighting with myself

Hello,

It has been a while since i have written a blog, but i have been fighting with myself for a while so i think what my title is best way to describe what has been happening with myself,

But! as a great saying "Every set back, is a oportunity waiting" i feel what i have gone threw and still is a good way to comfort others or help in any way a tall.

So with out any drama hear goes:

To give comfort and knowing your not alone,

We all go through despair,Doubt, Frustration, insecurity and every other feeling you could think of.

Time will heal the heart - what a interesting saying but if you think back in your past when you were feeling down and lonely you eventually did move on.

do you remember your first break up, you felt like hell but let this strengthen yourself, because you can get through it and you did!

there is a hidden lesson to learn very hard, something i still cant explain but you feel you know there is.

I cant stress enough dont let problems get to you, fall outs or betrayal,

A person today said theres a battle going on inside ourselves i do belive that everyday with me, maybe for others its every so often etc. BUT WE ARE NOT ALONE!!!!!!!!!

We need to strengthen ourselves by UNVERSIAL LOVE

what do i mean about this, this is what i took from a great talk, that comes from the heart not my mind .

hear here it is:

"Give love when you fell theres nothing in you to give and give people the benefit of the doubt"

Yes i never talked to people cause i let stupidty and what my friends told me about someone get to me.

so i am now saying dont let others live your life, chose for yourself life is SO SHORT and its your LIFE!!!!!!!!!

im proud to say i have grown stronger in the last 6 months than in my life than i have ever in my life.

But by doing this critizism has came my way and the feeling of lonelyness

BUT I SEE THE REAL PICTURE, if you look at great great people from Michael jordon to Henry Ford, to artists to musicans they were alone no one belived in them, but look at them now they succeeded through hardship and neglect.

So a feeling of lonelyness is the right path, Even Jesus was alone no one believed in his ways if he gave up, there wouldnt be great great people that inspired others.

This feeling is like what the guy said today in a great speech, DO YOU REALLY WANT IT DO YOU!!!!!!

ask your self do you went to succeed in something do you, pay the price reap the rewards

Law of attraction i belived, that led me to great people, beautiful wonderful people, inspirational that my Heart skips a beat.

Now religion, i ran from it i acted a prick and as being falsy led by leeting other people i let go control me and poison my mind.

i entered the vineyard today and you know what i have said many a times there are people in this world that are Briliant and to put it in easier terms peopl who see life differently. i Have never been a holy man but when i walked into the vineyard by GOD not only did i fine a few great people but a pack or colony. SO inspiring so passionate such a strong feeling of safety , kind of like when you were born crying and had no security but your mum like that.

i am a sinner But i am now a beliver, i know people will read this and go omg another regilous nut, i dont care i am speaking the truth and i do not care being judged.

"Be Critised For the small things in life or the big things"

If life has gone sour on you, cherish your experiences and release you have an exciting new path ahead of you.

opportunities come to those who open themselves and those who see choices in al situations, particular the challenging onee.

Most great people are made/born by trial and error - i can say i am still learning.

SO instead of playing the victim, listen to your inner self, chose to change cause only you can change yourself! - I promise you your personal growth will skyrocket!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There is a balance in the universe, each negative experience there is a postive outcome within it.

SO I OPEN MY HEART TO EVERYTHING LET PEOPLE>FRIENDS>EXPERICENCES>HARD SHiPS AND FINALLY A NEW ONE GOD GUIDE AND PROTECT ME AND HELP ME THROUGH MY TRIAL AND ERRORS

i release now that my most challenging life problems and more to come i wouldnt trade any of them for anything as they are what will make me stronger and a better person and eventually a great guy.

I am still fighting with myself on terms i cant explain i dont know why i just cant trust in someone.

so there is some saddness in what i talk about, but i feel good sharing this blog wherever you are or decide to read this

i really thank you for taking the time for reading this

Also thanks for being patient for reading this i suffer from a type of dyselix, so my grammar and words are hard to read and understand.

:) thank you